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The Antonio's (Tagaytay) Experience

Sat, 18 May 2013 12:30:33 +0800

First, let me warn you. This place is pricey. It also has a dress code so dapat hindi pambahay ang aura nyo. Medyo pang date naman and smart casual, pwede na :) Well, for us, students (ahem to my working friends) this entails a one thousand and more peso meal. At minimum. Lowest meal costs around P1450 and the most expensive costs around P17,000 EACH. Yes, each person. haha. And you also have to have a reservation (Thanks to Raiza and her cousin) :D They don’t allow walk-ins sa pagkakaalam ko.

So anyway, what matters naman is who you’re with and the whole experience which is surprisingly, worth it! haha We had lots of fun chit chatting and touring the restaurant. Let the pictures talk and tell their story na lang.

I also took a shot of their menu. Walang ginto ang pagkain nila. Sadyang ganyan lang. So better have cash when bet mo mag fly mo dito. or better, bring your parents along! ;) or your rich boylet. or kung sino man haha

Here’s the entrance. More vines and fresh air ang ganap nila. Very well maintained ang place. So I guess you’ll know where pumupunta yung earnings nila.

The door entrance.

The lobby with the owners’ ancestors. Parang old ancestral house slash hacienda sya turned into a resto. May victorian and old Spanish era ang feel.

And the stairs. More picture lang kami.

So here goes the foodam. We were served an appetizer of a bread with sesame seeds on top and butter. The butter was excellent. Pinapak ko nga eh hehe pero the bread was uhm, nothing special.

First we were served salad. It was nice, if you’re a salad freak. Pero if not, uhm, I don’t think you’d enjoy the salad. They call this their Antonio’s House Salad. I gave it a 7/10. Rai: 6/10. Dudday: “Hindi ko maubos!”

Then goes the highlight! Their Mushroom-Capuccino Soup! I thought medyo nabingi lang ako una, but no. Mushroom soup plus capuccino nga sya. Happiness! Weird pero ansarap! hahaha 11/10 ang score ko!

Here’s raiza after taking her first sip. All she said was “Ansaya!” Bongga to. “Looks weird at first pero it is really something good!”

Homemade Ravioli with Minted Veal Cheeks, Goat Cheese and Creamed Tartufo. Hmmm. Sorry, but we didn’t like this. Nothing really special about it. Turuan pa kami sino uubos. hehe

Organic-Free Range Chicken Leg Confit. (Fr. Antonio’s Farm) with Bourbon Tomato on Pesto Mascarpone Risotto. The chicken was nice naman, same as Max’s yung style. Pero ang bongga ay yung Risotto! Clap clap. First time ko to really taste one and well, I’m sorry to the future risottos na kakainin ko. My standards are up!

For our dessert, di ko na maalala mga exact na pangalan ng mga inorder namin. But this one is their flourless cake. Bongga naman. But I think I can bake a better tasting cake than this. hehe pero a must try kasi intriguing kasi flourless nga daw. haha

Here is Rai’s. Di ko maalala name neto eh pero neither the three of us enjoyed. Lasang gamot yung coffee ice cream on top of a meringue. And there was also something on top of the ice cream. Something something. hehe

And ofcourse, here comes the clap clap dessert. Choco terrine with pistachios. Basta sya yung pinakamahaba ang name sa menu ng dessert nila. Naintriga lang kami kaya inorder namin. Eto na talaga yon, very sosyal ang lasa and winner na winner. Can’t get enough! Chinika ko pa yung chef about this. I asked what’s the difference nya with gelato. Parang higher level pa daw sya ng gelato and less yung air and di sya madaling matunaw compared to gelato and our common gallon ice creams.

We were also served a very nice tea afterwards. :)

Here are more pictures of the place.

Overall the experience was worth it kasi I was with two of my best girlfriends. Sarap kwentuhan and tawanan. In terms of experience, I’d give it a 9/10. Pero yung food, extremes kasi. There were super nice and there were below average. Or maybe we had no idea lang what is really the best to order. Or baka naman yung tumataginting na 17k ang tunay na masarap haha. Anyway, it’s nice to go back here, but first siguro, ask for their bestsellers so it’s really gonna be worth every peso. ;D

A pageant experience (Ansabe?!)

Sun, 22 Jul 2012 23:48:46 +0800

(Post made last Jul-19 Thu. Late post.)

Disclaimer: I am not a pageant person. :)

Never ko naimagine ever na rarampa ako sa stage wearing daring outfits. Or let’s just say I am not the type of person who knows herself and whom everybody expects to go on strutting her stuff on the stage. Masarap rumampa, yes, pag kaharap mo lang ang closest friends mo or just a mirror. But infront of a bunch of people, oh no. Nakaka panic mode on.

Nag back out na talaga ako sa Ms. Vetlympics kasi like what I said, feel ko hindi keri ng powers ko irampa ang beauty ko sa madlang people. But after all the drama and thinking, and a touch of guilt, I decided gogora na ako. Why? Kasi when I press released na hindi na ako tutuloy, I felt so anxious na what if tumuloy ako, ano kayang feeling? Di naman ako sanay na masyadong nabibigyan ng attention in those kinds of crowds, kaya I felt really really curious. I knew it will be a whirlwind experience, yet I know I’ll learn a lot. So with a shaking system, I said yes (again) to UPACS.

And so here were the pictures of me last Monday. It was very very surreal, really. Panaginip levels! Hindi ako kinabahan, natakot, whatsoever. Dunno, nafeel ko lang na ienjoy yung experience. Para lang akong naglalaro. Whatever I felt doing and saying gow. I smiled, winked, stared, raised my eyebrow, etc. I felt like a little girl playing around the stage wearing different outfits.

Yes, I wore a red two piece bikini infront of everyone. Haha! Madaming nagulat how I showed some skin onstage. Pero I was thinking kasi summer themed, and believe it or not, I was comfortable with everything I did! I never thought na magiging memorable ang pagtataas ko ng sarong. Up to the point na ipapabonus pa sa quiz ang name at kulay ng bikini na suot ko! Every compliment was deeply appreciated, promise. Di ko nafeel na nagmaganda ako or anything, ang super nafeel ko ay keri ko pala maging ganun ka confident. In short, makapal pala fez ko! Haha

I had lots of fun meeting new people and smiling all night. :) di ko din inexpect to win anything, especially ang bobongga ng mga other contestants. Mas type ko sumocialize kaysa kareer-rin makipagcompete. Haha. Di ko naman talaga knows how beauty pageants work. I just told myself to stay real and ifeel ang moment. :)

Lakas maka donya ng outfet ko. haha

Gow confidence! ;p

Wala akong masight na picture nung aking big reveal. haha. Eto na lang may pic. Buti naman ;))

Sorry naman. Lost ako. Busy ako kaka stomach in. HAHA

With Adrian. Rampa rampa lang. hehe May moonleaf drink pala akong hawak. Sponsored!

Antaba ko lang sa shot nato. Wala akong makitang deceiving shot eh. haha

Donya talaga ang peg ko that night. haha

With my machong escort, Barney. hahaha

Yey! Akalain mo, may nakaappreciate ng mga pinaggagawa ko? ;)

Haggardness. With Pau and Ate Gel. :D

With the ever supporting people. Mga taga boost ng self confidence ko. haha Love you!

With surgery friends! After kong harrasin nang bongga si Emil. Pics soon!

Oh debah? Beauty queen ang peg. hehe ;)

I put this bouquet on Lola’s coffin and sinama din sya sa cremation nya.

Ang may kagagawan ng lahat! haha

Photos are from Arriane Baluyut/UP VetSoc :D

LOSS

Sun, 22 Jul 2012 21:44:33 +0800

I never really understood what the word ‘loss’ is in my life. I may lost a few material things, some friends, and pets, but I could move on and forget easily because I would always remind myself that there are better things I have and their is no point in getting emotional over something lost or someone that left. In short, I can be quite optimistic about it.

But now, it’s hard. Because my Lola is not replaceable. She’s the only one I’ve got. Walang kapalit, walang substitute. The love, the care, the presence is not replaceable by anyone or anybody. She’s a very big part of who I am and my foundation as a person. Kaya when she surprisingly left, I felt something inside me broke down and shattered. I wasn’t ready to be left by someone like her.

I would always go to my grandparents’ house every now and then. Not because I am wanted, but because I need to go there. I wanted to. I feel safe. I feel at home. The happiest memories of my childhood live in that house. Pag pagod ako sa acads, stressed sa buhay, lagi ako lilipad papunta dun just to talk to my lola. To the hardest academic battles and the petty things such as my bitterness dahil sa panget na boyfriend ng friend/s ko I’d tell her. And she would always support me all the way. Mas lumalakas ang loob ko and tumatapang ako whenever I leave that house kasi I’d always bring my lola’s words with me. I was never out of place in my lola’s life. My opinions, my stories were all entertained and listened to.

She would always worry about me. My lola is a very strong woman – matapang, mataray, masungit as they all say. But to me, she was never like that. One of the things I’d always remember about her is that she doesn’t want me to be alone. Ayaw na ayaw nyang naiiwan ako mag isa. When I go to Manila or kahit sa SM Calamba lang, she would always tell me na maghanap ako ng kasama. She would make my lolo call me every now and then just to check where I am. Kaya naman minsan, kahit wala akong kasama sa aking escapades, I’d tell her na lang na may kasama ako just to spare her the worry. Alam ko, kung kaya pa ng katawan nya, sasamahan nya ako. At isasama ko rin naman sya. I’d tell myself, sana she has the strength para maisama ko sya sa paggagala ko. And pag malungkot ako kasi I realize wala na naman akong kasama, I’ll just think of her and Lolo then okay na ako. Knowing that they are there, hindi ko man sila kasama lagi, gives me a certain strength to face a whole lot of things by myself.

One of the earliest memories I have with my Lola was when I was around three or four years old. My parents would stop me from feeding from my baby bottle by hiding the bottles and giving me a glass of milk. Until now, the feeling of being deprived from my baby bottle is still fresh to me. Alam ko pa yung feeling. There’s a certain ‘safety’ associated with feeding from a baby bottle and I hated that that feeling was being taken away from me. And my Lola knows that. We have our own set of baby bottles inside her closet. Sa gabi, magtatago sya ng bottle sa duster nya, we’d go to the kitchen and get some milk. Then tatago nya ulit sa duster nya tapos I’d drink the milk inside her room until makatulog na ako. It’s one of the safest feelings I had in my life, knowing that my Lola was there to let me feed on my baby bottle.

The second memory is the ‘butong pakwan’ experience. Every night, my Lola and I would watch a certain circus show on ABC (Channel 5). I remember na it’s one of the things I look forward to every night, watching that circus show. Lola was opening the butong pakwan seeds while ako, taga kain lang. haha. Then all of a sudden, I realized I put a seed inside my nose! Funny, di ko din maexplain until now how it got there. Basta all I remembered was nasa ilong ko na sya and I couldn’t get it out. I was rushed to the hospital and I was bonggang nagwawala and crying kasi I didn’t want doctors to put their instruments inside my nose. They had to bind my hands and feet using a blanket para lang marestrain ako. Luckily, they were able to pull that shitty butong pakwan seed and I didn’t have to undergo surgery. What an experience. ;)

Other memories include our family trips to Tagaytay, grocery shopping, watching Lola write her lesson plan and compute her students’ grades, weddings of my uncles, graduations and birthdays. Of all the moments I consider important in my life, more than half of it Lola was there. I remember she even gave me a black Labrador puppy on my birthday, a bracelet which has my engraved name on it, a necklace in which my zodiac sign was imprinted on, a green dress which I used in my high school graduation party, bonggang Tommy Hilfiger and Tianella bags, sets of make up, and a lot lot more. She gave me a lot of things. A lot.

Ang aking curly hair ngayon ay sponsored din nya, the look for my Phil Fashion Week experience ay galing din sa kanya, basta madami. Lahat ng kakikayan at kaartehan ko sa buhay, all that was supported by my Lola. I don’t know what to call that kind of support my Lola gave me throughout my life, di ko alam kung may tamang word pa to call or describe it. However, I am just sure of one thing, my Lola loved me and that I was never a ‘wala lang’ to her. I was important. I am a ‘someone’ to her.

Latest memories include all our kwentuhan whenever I go to carbern, lahat ng experiences nya sa buhay, she and lolo’s memories together, mga manliligaw nya, her studies, memories nya nung war days, stories about Papa and my uncle’s childhood, and a lot lot more. Marami syang kwento, masarap syang kwentuhan because I always learn new things from her. And like what I said, ang importante sa akin was how she listens to everything I say. Even though she’s my lola and I am much younger than her, I never felt that all my stories were less important to her. They all matter.

I knew she has been sick. Dapat nga she’ll be going through dialysis pa although these past month, she got better. I saw her go through her sickness and how it was hard for her. Lagi syang giniginaw, experiencing headache, nausea, hirap maglakad and all. Pero kahit her body was giving her reasons to slow down, when it comes to me and Carlo, she never changed. Kung paano sya nung malakas pa sya, she’s still the same though I know nahihirapan na sya. Pinapagluto nya pa din kami when we go there. She knows our favourite dishes and the food we don’t eat. All the things we tell her, naaalala nya to the littlest details. All the important people in my life, kilala nya. All that kinakamusta nya whenever we talk.

It’s very hard to accept that Lola is not here anymore. Alam ko, at one point she’ll leave pero not this soon. Especially that we are all thinking she’s doing better compared to last year. I never imagined that she’ll leave us this way. Biglaan and all – no drama, not in a hospital. It will be so hard. Until now, I still fool myself by believing I’m just dreaming and pag pumunta ako sa Carbern, makikita ko lang si Lola dun and magkekwentuhan ulit kami. Hindi pa ako naniniwala that these are all real. Umiiyak pa din ako. At alam kong iiyak pa din ako nang iiyak. I know she’s in a better place right now and for that I am happy for her. But as for myself, di ko alam. Di ko pa maimagine how to get through without my lola. I feel alone without her. Nahihirapan din ako to see Lolo and Tita Wena go through losing her. Di ko alam san kukuha ng strength to be there for them kasi even myself, I feel left behind.

For now, I’ll just let myself grieve. Iiyak muna ako hanggang maubos. And hopefully, one of these days, I’ll get to feel better and accept the truth. Masakit pa. Ayoko pa. I still feel all these resisting emotions na hindi ko pa malabanan.

Lola, thank you po sa lahat. Sa lahat lahat. I love you.

Til we meet again.

CROCS MEGASALE Pricelist! Ongoing at The Fort, Taguig. 10am to...

Fri, 01 Jun 2012 16:59:01 +0800

CROCS MEGASALE Pricelist! Ongoing at The Fort, Taguig. 10am to 10pm :)

Picture from Aleya Rama

Top Picks! (Phil Fashion Week)

Sun, 27 May 2012 21:28:00 +0800

.CHRIS JASLER.

Yezzzzzz. This model opened the show, and just stood there for minutes. Ang background music? Tumatahol na aso! haha

Tapos nagbihis sya. Aaawww :( chos.

Bet ko talaga yung mask effect!

Outer space ang peg. Feeling ko bet to ni Lady Gaga. Sexy ng mowdel. ;)

Halatang hirap si kuya maglakad. Heelless shooz pala ang suot even the guys.

TOP PICK!!! chos. Di ko napansin outfit nya eh, sorry.

Gusto ko lang yung pagkaterno ng outfit nya. Parang one piece lang. Pang power rangers!

Bad ass! Love!

Bet ko yung pants. Yung top, di masyadow. haha

This is my fave! Very wearable lang ang dating. :)

Enough said.:p

Chris Jasler!

.MELCHOR GUINTO.

Clean na clean! Muntik na maging waiter. hehe

Bet ko yung top. :)

Naalala ko si Blair Waldorf sa outfit nato. Di ko alam baket. hehe

Chic! I like the blazer. Sharp ang dating!

Pretty :)

Ganda lang ng fit kay kuya. hehe

My fave look sa guys! Groom na groom ang look!

Eto pang bestman. haha

Eto yung boylet ni unadz. hahaha. Sya yung nag open ng show kanina. hehe

.PHILIPP TAMPUS.

Bet na bet ko yung pagka nude effect nya. :)

Ganda ng kulay! Merry Christmas!

Di masyado maganda sa picture pero sa runway ganda neto. I remember :)

Mukhang poon no? Pero ganda. Parang panahon ng mga espanyol!

Pang bridesmaid!

Mukhang foil no? Ang bet ko yung accent sa gitna.

Beautiful nito! Nakakasexy!

Cleopatra!

Bet ko. Ganda lang yung gold and black combination. Powerfool!

The gown that took my breath away. Glad I saw a picture nito. Hanggang makauwi, naaalala ko pa rin to. :)) The audience went really quiet nung lumabas to.

.VEEJAY FLORESCA.

Two toned!

Like ko yung color. Minimalist!

Suggestion! Mas maganda sana kung mas maikli. haha. Nagcritic?

Like ko din yung kumikinang na telang ganyan. hehe

Barong na barong ang peg. Nakakasmart!

Maganda outfit to pag magpipicture sa Eiffel Tower!

Mukhang mayaman look!

Bet ko yung jacket. Pero yung parang blazer length lang. Haba much neto. haha

This is VJF finale dress.

And this is my favorite! Super fresh yung idea. Gusto ko magsuot neto. hehe

Pictures by Stan de la Cruz for www.runway2reality.com :D

PhilFashionWk: A Gorgeous Experience!

Sun, 27 May 2012 14:08:00 +0800

Philippine Fashion Week.

I know it exists. Pero never ko naman naimagine na makakapunta ako don. haha. First, I am not a blogger, model, media person. On the contrary, I am a VetMed student. My world is not really familiar with the fashion stuff. Pero dahil may kikay side din naman ako and babae ako, syempre fashion will always be interesting for me. ;)

I got my friends into the Chris Jasler, Melchor Guinto, Philipp Tampus and Veejay Floresca show for the PFW. Veejay just tweeted about how to get invites so I send my name in. Experimentally lang. haha. Wala naman talaga akong idea how it works. Then boom, I received the invite the following day. I realized ‘Anong gagawin ko dun mag isa?!’ so gow na. I texted my friends to go and send an email din. Then after a few days, we were all in!

Nadz and Butch are both VJF fans. Pangarap nila maging VJF bride someday. HAHA. So talagang walang makakapigil sa kanilang dalwa to go sa fashion week. Kami naman ni Gab, maka Philipp. Yiz, matagal na akong inlove sa designs ni Philipp Tampus. Since Project Runway 1 pa lang, lagi akong excited sa mga designs nya. Elementary pa lang ata ako nun. Philipp knows how to dress a woman’s body - what to accentuate, what to hide. Exquisite sya when it comes to details! The lace gowns and bonggang intricacy ng details, nako, yan ang talent nya. AMAZEEEEENG! Jawdropping ang collection nya sa runway! Makapigil hininga. haha

Si Dudday naman,walang kilala sa mga designers. hahaha. Pero gow na gow kasi minsan lang kami magbabonding the fashionista way. hehe

Nadz. Butch. Me. Gab. Dudday. infront of the runway, after the show.

These are the highlights of our PFW Experience:

1. Wardrobe malfunction

Yiz. Di ko alam na nakakatwist ng utak ang maghanap ng dress for a fashion event. Syempre, you have to look good and next you have to blend in. It was hard kasi wala talaga akong idea sa peg na look ng mga tao sa ganon. Nagkaron pa ng ‘run’ yung dress ko the day before PFW. Buti napansin ko, I had it fixed. Si Gab naman, was supposed to wear white pants. The morning before going to SMX, nalagyan ng paint ng little sis nya!

Then eto ang bonggang moment. While walking sa lobby ng SMX, Gab’s strapped heels broke! Poise under pressure ang drama ng lola mo. haha. She had to walk barefooted and stand in line while waiting for her flats. To the rescue naman kaming lahat. hahaha

Gab rocking her barefooted look. Oh and the necklace na napansin ni Divine. hehe

2. The taxi overheated!

hahaha! Super lols. Nasa SMX na ako with Gab and Butch. We were waiting for Nadz and Dudday. Super tagal nila kasi stucked sa traffic. Then Nadz called, ‘Nakikita ko na yung globe!! Eto na kami. Wait! Nagoverheat yung taxi!’

They got there on time naman pero medyo mahaba na yung line that time. Keri lang. Maayos naman yung view from our seats. ;)

The line. Try mong tumayo sa pila nang nakaheels. Tiis ganda!

3. Here comes Mother Becky! with V and Jake Galvez

When we got to our seats, I scanned the hall. Syempre madaming becky, kanya kanyang outfit. The girls din ay kanya kanyang porma and make up. Pretty sight kasi lahat ng tao nakaporma galore. I saw Jake Galvez, kasi blonde ang hair nya so madali syang masight. Sya ang fave ko sa Becky Nights! haha

I went to the CR pala, nakakaaliw. Yung hallway papunta sa CR, all you can hear ay click-clacking ng heels! Estrogen overload! haha

Di ko na maalala who spotted D, pero when someone told me, ay bongga, natulala ako! Kasi I didn’t expect na D will be there kahit alam kong friends sila ni Veejay. Wala lang. Di ko lang nafeel. Then yon, ayun na, si Mother Becky na love na love ko ay nakaupo with V on her side. I knew what to do, di ko papalampasin ang gabi na walang picture with her! Fan levels talaga ako. :p

Spot V. Para makita si D. :)

And there we are! I told yah, tulala levels ako nang makita si Divine. :p Ligaya ni Gab at Unadz dito.

We took pics with her after the show. Totoo nga, she’s really super nice and kulit! She complimented Gab’s necklace and even screamed with us nung super naexcite kami kasi nakita namin sya. Talon levels din sya kahit heelless Kermit shooz ang suot nya. Funny pa kasi, si Victor paikot ikot lang taking pictures while si D pinagkakaguluhan ng sangkabaklaan! haha

N + C + B + N + D + D

Tapos nung nawala si V, D was shouting, “Love! Love! Wait!’ Parang nasa bahay lang. hahaha

Feeling ni ate kasama sya sa picture?haha

Nasupladahan pa unintentionally ni Gab at Nadz si V kasi bigla biglang sumusulpot! He’s nice pa rin. Ever support lang kay Mother. And yes,gwapong gwapo :)

Si V, ang inaway ni Unadz. haha

4. Chris Jasler’s collection

FIERCE AND HOT! Topless ang bet ng mga male models. Bet ko yung headdress nila. Jeans and rugged look ang theme ng collection nya. All the models were wearing heelless shooz. Medyo hirap maglakad yung mga models, pero keri lang, sight to behold naman sila.

Chris Jasler with his collection during Men’s Fashion Week

5. Melchor Guinto collection

Suits naman ang peg nya. Di ako masyado nakarelate kasi suits and mostly pang male ang outfits nya. Pero bet ni Gab yung collection nya.

Mel Guinto’s collection last year

Melchor Guinto

6. Philipp Tampus

ETO NAAAAA! When the first model came out, OMG lang talaga nag lumabas sa bibig ko. Lakas ng dating ng dress! And hindi disappointing ang show nya, level up talaga! All the gowns ay maganda. Kinikilabutan ako. The details, the colors, the flow! Philipp really knows how to dress a woman. Kahit anong design nya, flattering. And the details? Feeling ko 5 years bago nagawa yun eh! My favorite was the read lacey long sleeved gown. Nanahimik yung buong hall when it came out. Wala akong nasabi. Nakakaspeechless.

Philipp really knows his craft. Period!

Hindi ito yung collection nya sa PFW2012. Sa StyleBible to nanggaling. Pero nevertheless, ganyan mga style nya. More on fuschia, greens and blues lang yung napanuod namin.

Philipp with another fellow Project Runway contestant, Lord

7. Veejay Floresca

Ang designs ni Veejay ay malalim! haha. May isip factor. Magaling sya. May depth yung designs nya. Not as bongga as Philipp’s pero may lalim. Parang may meaning? Ganon yung feel. Subtle lang din sya when it comes to colors, more on beige and blacks lang. Substance kung substance ang collection ni VJF :D

Pero etong si Veejay may galit ata saken, tinulak ba naman ako gamit yung pinto sa SMX? haha. Kidding, di naman nya sinasadya. Pero ang cute lang, kasi ang payat nya and ang liit nya hindi ko napansin na sya si Veejay. Only nung nagsorry lang sya sa akin ko sya nakilala. Super duper nice nya he even requested na iupload yung pics namin sa kanya at itag sya sa fb! hahaha :)

Us with Andrei Estudillo, eh, este Veejay Floresca :D

8. Joshua Rosario

He’s a friend of Dudday’s. Blogger and fashionista din sya. May mga lumalapit sa kanya to take his picture para sa mga blog thingy. He’s nice and super fun kasama. Tourguide lang ang peg nya habang kasama kami. Check out his blog www.styleshifter.tumblr.com. You can also follow him on twitter @seagreenlike :)

He promised to give us invites for the next PFW! haha. And for that, love ko na sya! haha

Sino ba ang mukhang Joshua dito?haha. Yeah, that’s him! Over dinner at TOSH.

9. Kelly Misa

AY KAGANDANG BABAE! hahaha. Perhaps one of the prettiest girls I’ve seen. Tahimik lang sya and smile smile lang. We have a picture with her.

With the very pretty Kelly Misa

At ang waist nya, levelling ni Divine! Parang toothpick! Hampayat! hahaha. Akbay galore kasi ako sa kanila eh. Alam mo na, friends. hahahaha.

She’s not as pretty sa pictures at commercials, pero in person, wow talaga ang fez nya!

Isa pa, ang ganda nya. Bow.

10. Teresa Herrera

Eto naman si Ate, we saw her upstairs na. Dun sa area na walang tao. I hesitated na lapitan sya kasi besides na may intimidating factor yung dating, fez, and status nya, hindi ako sure na sya yun! haha. Hampayat nya kasi! Iba yung itsura nya sa mga pictures and sa tv kaya nagdalwang isip ako. Pero confirmed sya nga, I asked her sa twitter. She even said na dapat nga daw nag hello ako sa kanya.

She walks around SMX na parang sya ang may-ari ng fashion week! haha. Supermodel levels! Love ko pa rin sya :)

Gorgeous lady!

Here are the other pics:

Ako after the show :)

Si Unadz and her new boylet. hahaha. This model opened the show in briefs! Tapos mga 5 minutes syang nakatayo lang. Enjoy ang sangkabaklaan! at si Unadz!

“Thank you Lord!!!” - Unadz

“Mukha akong mabait dito…” - Butch

Gab in flats! ;)

Ako ulit. Pumepenshoppe lang. hehe

Dahil antangkad ni Dudday dito! haha

Kami ulit!

Runway! Eto ba yung nasa Devil Wears Prada?

Butch’s signature pose

Dahil matangkad sya dito. Sa picture. hahaha

Gorgeous experience! :D

On the Filipinos going Gaga over a Lady

Tue, 22 May 2012 01:27:25 +0800

Since kakatapos lang naman ng concert ni Lady Gaga, bet ko na din magblog or magshare what I truly feel about the controversies surrounding her coming here to the Philippines.

First, I like Lady Gaga. At first it really took time bago ko sya maapreciate. In short, nag adjust talaga ako. haha. Kasi naman diba, extremes si ate sa kanyang mga prod numbers and nakakatwist ng utak yung mga concepts ng performances nya. But I like it. I like na ganung way sya magpapansin. I call it intellectual na pagpapapansin. Kasi mapapaisip ka eh, you will not just appreciate the sexy steps, the chic make up, the out of this world lyrics, mapapaisip ka what is she really trying to say or portray sa audience. At pag nagets mo, feel na feel mo talaga na UP student ka. HAHAHA

Second, a few years ago I watched something about Lady Gaga on why she is like that (basta yun naun!). Bet na bet nya naman talaga maging singer eversince bata sya. Although it was really hard for her kasi even if she had the talent to sing eh she doesn’t look like Britney, Christina or JLo. She is not as stunning as these bonggang superstars. So there came the concept na she had to be different to capture audience’s attention. She was also bullied nung bata sya and the song ‘Born This Way’ was inspired by her mother who told her to love herself for who she is and do not give a damn about what other people say because God loves her that way.

Thirdly, if there was something I love about Lady Gaga’s package is the angst! The angst that can leave your jaw hanging because she just slapped you in the face as she portrays the ‘I don’t give a damn about what you think’ image. Diba? Powerfoool! She’s bold, she’s brave, she’s fearless. Yan ang bonggang attitude nya na love na love ko. She is an inspiration to everyone na basta love mo ang sarili mo, and you keep the people who love you for who you are dearly, gora lang sa buhay! Basta walang nasasaktan at naapakang tao, nako, kebs sa mga comments. Sabi nga nya, ‘I don’t give a f*ck!’ as she was singing Judas at the SM MOA Arena. Yan ang uso ngayon eh, liberate yourself from the corners of the stereotypical world. Di ko din kasi bet ang dinidiktahan ako ng gagawin sa buhay ko or makulong ako sa rules ng expectations ng people from me. Hate na hate ko yan. Nagwawala ako pag ginaganyan akech. haha

Anyhoo, lastly, to all the Anti Lady Gaga people out there, I respect your opinions. If you have fully researched (using scientific methods) your claims, eh wala na ako masay pa. Pero I challenge you to post that. To publicly spread that claim and the evidences supporting your claim. Open naman ako na basahin yan at intindihin yan. Pero as of now guys, wala. All I hear are protests and comments that Lady Gaga has a demonic echos. Nah, nakakatawa eh. Ambabaw ng dating. And yes, very true ang say ni Sir Jim Paredes,

“If your understanding of Christianity is threatened by a singer who wears funny clothes, then what a puny understanding it is.”

Why should you be threatened, diba? Fear the Lord himself, be threatened by His words. Not by just some overdressed superstar who just wants to entertain and give inspiration by being herself. So lame, actually.

And cmon Philippines, why not love Lady Gaga? She wore a Filipiniana terno on her opening number for heaven’s sake?!haha

(photo by Carmela Brosas)

Pero eto serious na…

Lady Gaga is just an entertainer, pipol, wag masyado mastress. Hindi naman sya namimilit na panuorin nyo sya. Free will nga eh, anuber naman. hahaha :)

Or baka naman bitter lang kayo kasi mahal ang ticket? Hmmm.. ;p

"If your understanding of Christianity is threatened by a singer who wears funny clothes, then what a..."

Tue, 22 May 2012 00:09:28 +0800

“If your understanding of Christianity is threatened by a singer who wears funny clothes, then what a puny understanding it is.”

- Jim Paredes

Enough said. I’m excited! I’m going with my...

Sat, 19 May 2012 14:55:50 +0800

Enough said. I’m excited! I’m going with my girlfriends. Still not sure what to wear. Presshoooor! ;)

Up Close and Personal with Sitti

Wed, 16 May 2012 13:53:03 +0800

(Late post. Ngayon ko lang na post. But I wrote this the day after.)

Yez! Kahit nag upload na ako sa fb at twitter ng mga pics eh no one can stop me from making this blogpost. Yung mga once in a lifetime experience deserves an entry mapa digital man or on paper. For memorabilia. :D

Kaya habang fresh pa sa aking memory, go blog na :D

Last night, Rai, Dudday and I were supposed to go to 7th High to watch Sitti. Well, actually, I had no idea din what to expect on a gig sa lounge. Ang knows ko lang eh, nakaupo tapos may drinks. However di nakasama si Dudday kasi an emergency happened sa family nila so gora date kami ni Rai.

We were late! and di ko inexpect na bonggang layo pala ng travel time namin. Anyway, basta ayun, 9pm ang start, dumating kami 10pm na. Kasama na dun ang ligaw ligaw moments sa Boni High Street with Mr. Taxi Driver :D

Then boom, here na sa 7th High. I felt that anxiety kasi I was not familiar sa place. And all I knew about 7th High ay doon shinoot yung No Other Woman. hahaha. :p

Security check muna, then elevator, then turn The Lounge. On the other side naman ay yung The Club na nagsisimula nang marinig ang bass. When we entered we expected to pay for the entrance fee na P500. Pero nung inask ko yung nag welcome sa amin, parang no idea si Ate.

The place was nice, very neat, black comfy seats and glass tables. Bar na bar ang peg. Pero maliwanag and stylish. Yung mga tao din stylish. haha. Mga nakaheels the girls pero the guys ay more on smart casual lang. Buti na lang mukha kaming tao ni Rai that night. haha

I saw Sitti agad! She was chit chatting dun sa isang table sa harap ng stage. Very few lang ang tao. Imagine a sophisticated resto with bar lang. Many tables are not occupied. Hindi formal, maraming naglalakad, tumatayo, including Sitti.

When we already chose a table and offered a menu, I looked at Sitti sa kabilang table. I was surprised to see her looking at me. She was mouthing words like, “I know you. You’re familiar.” I was surprised I felt glued to my seat. I decided to smile na lang. Then she smiled at me and waved hello too.

Then after a few minutes of adjustment, Sitti went to us! Dumaan sya sa harap ng table namin still looking at me like I was her forgotten classmate/seatmate in school. Then she told me again that she knows me. Hindi ko na maalala ang exact moments because I heard her say, “Camille! Yes! It’s you.”

Ako stunned pa rin. I felt my jaw dropped to the floor. hahaha

She remembered me from Twitter! Although I found it really sweet kasi I don’t really tag her often. Sa hiya ko na lang diba? I just ask her kung saan ang gig nya. Of which di ko naman ineexpect na maalala nya ako, sa dami ng followers nya who may also be asking her the same question. Anyway, kung paano nya ako naalala ay amazing pa rin for me.

She sat down. Chicka chicka sila ni Rai kasi they’re both from UPD. Sitti pala was a cum laude. Di ko maalala course nya. But she’s a UP graduate. I think she also joined a beauty pageant before where she won din. Basta the bottomline is, she’s a lady with talent, beauty and brains. No wonder bet na bet ko sya :D

She event complimented my outfit and asked to take a picture! Dapat daw magpicture kasi sayang ang outfit! Very game sya and sweet. There’s a time pa na hindi ako makatayo kasi masikip yung table, she even stood up and told me doon n daw ako dumaan. Feeling talaga namin ni Rai we found a new bff in Sitti. She was not intimidating! Kahit super pretty nya even if morena sya, ansarap nya kausap. :D

She told me how to pose para daw pareho kami. Nagkwento pa sya who are the other people in the room, tinuro nya yung friends nya from Bora. Then while she was sitting beside me, she asked me what do I want her to sing. Bet ko kasi talaga yung version nya ng ‘Tattooed on my Mind”. So I told her I loved that song. Actually, medyo natauhan ako that time na sya nga pala si Sitti, the Bossa Nova Queen of the country. Kasi I felt so comfy with her nalimutan ko ata who she is. HAHAHAHA. So aun, dun ata nag sink in saken na dapat ako mastarstruck.

Then later she went back to the stage for her 2nd set, and she sang Tattoed on My Mind which she dedicated to me and Raiza. Bet na bet! hahaha. Sabi ko nga kay Raiza dapat nagsama tayo ng date! The way we looked and the way things were happening should be complimented with dates! haha :D

After the set Sitti went back to us, took pics again. She thanked us for coming and I told her I’ll bring all my friends next time. She told us na ayun nga, sana we’ll be able to go back. Then beso beso! hahaha. Then she got her navy blue Long Champ bag (talagang pinansin ko talaga ano? haha) then walked alone paalis ng bar.

Nagkataon naman that time paalis na rin kami ni Rai. So nauuna lang sya sa amin ng a few steps. Medyo binagalan naman namin kasi nakakahiya magkakasabay pa kami out the bar. Magmumukha na talaga kaming gumimik together. haha

So aun, we waited until nasundo sya then lumabas na din kami to Starbucks ourselves. Yes, pinanindigan ko ang heels ko habang strolling around the streets. hahaha :D

Nakakatuwang experience. If I only knew ganon ang happening eh sana sinama ko lahat ng friends ko! I really had a great time! And yes, hansaya saya! haha. Perhaps last night was the most unforgettable night and experience in my 2012. :D

What made it a lot better ay we were not asked to pay for the P500 entrance! haha. Di ko alam kung nalimutan nila or what, kaya lumafang kami ni Rai ng pizza. I ordered a Lychee Martini (na lasang sabon! hahaha) and while si Rai nagshake lang sya kasi bawal ang alcohol sa system nya :)

I was trying to retrieve my multiply account para ma upload ko yung unang picture ko with Sitti nung 2nd year HS. Pero tinanggal na ata nila lahat ng albums.

So there it goes. Of all the concerts ni Sitti na napuntahan ko, walang say ang front row seats I had sa aking experience na ito. :)

The Story of the Gayuma Resto

Thu, 03 May 2012 21:50:44 +0800

Yesterday, I went to QC to meet and celebrate Dudday’s 21st birthday and to watch Sitti’s gig at 7th High. Just like any normal bored college student, I was looking forward to a great day because at last, I have something to do besides sitting down on my bed staring at my laptop or playing all the games I can download on an Ipad.

Rai and I met Dudday at Maginhawa Street, QC - at a Restaurant named Gayuma. The place is very honeymoon like. Yes, it speaks of lust, sex and love. I dunno. Ganun lang talaga ang dating nya saken. When we arrived pa, there was a gay couple (of whom ay parehong oh so gwapo?!) who were sweetie sweetie sa isang corner. Then the rest of the people na nandon ay couples and groups of friends.

What was exciting about this resto is their menu. I had a nice time laughing and enjoying reading their menu - which consists of names of dishes like:

Love Bugs

My Major Major Love Affair

My Kind of Mushy

I’m All Rolled Up For You

Itsie Bitsie Fetish

Keep Me Warm

Lumpiang Excited

My Giant Nut is a Yummy Nut

French Kissing

Nilasing si Eba si Adan

Three’s a Crowd

I love you, Cross my heart

Size doesn’t matter

I’m Wild for You

No Boyfriend since Birth

(Caption: With this perfect blend of Pesto and Cheese, who needs boys?)

Sobrang aliw lang. Masarap ang fudam! Esp their shakes, bet na bet! Although the ambience is quite dark kasi under yellow light, I still liked the food. And their staff is very sweet! Even gave dudday a slice of cake with a candle. Pasado din sa customer service :D

Here’s a shot of their menu. I think dapat iclose up for you to read the captions. Nakakaaliw promise :D

The dishes were categorized into Courtship, Attraction, Fling and Commitment.

Then they have that surprise meal of the day. You just have to shout the, “I want to do the 69!” line to avail that mystery meal. But ofcourse, hindi keri ng powers namin gawin yon. hahaha

Izoom in nyo na lang para mas kita. :D

On losing things

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 21:23:03 +0800

Yes. Magdadrama akech. Dahil I just lost my celphone! Gawd. Can’t believe na after pa ng mass sa St. Therese sya nawala. Pero no one to blame but yours truly. I left it eh so makukuha talaga ng iba. Eh wala atang balak na ibalik ng kung sino man, kaya gow na lang ang buhay.

At dahil sa bonggang happening na yan, I realized something about myself. Well di lang naman solely gawa ng pagkawala ng aking beloved celphone, I just observed myself lately na when under pressure or something is happening na di ko bet or di ako okay, I can take it lightly na. I used to know myself kasi na worrier, I get affected so much that I crack. Pero now pansin ko lang, I just shut up and then breathe in and out. Tapos nakakapag isip na ako nang ayos. Relaxed na relaxed. Kinda weird for me. Bongga kasi ang emotions ko sa pagkakakilala ko sa aking sarili. Pero anyhoooo, I think better naman that I’m this way now.

When something happened na hindi maganda, I just leave the place or get away from the stress. Breathe in and out. And then think. If ever hindi, distracts self muna ang drama ko til I get to find my happy place where I can be relaxed so I can think of what to do. Lagi naman may solution eh. Always and always.

Pero pag wala talagang choice and if the stressors are still there adding up, I leave nang bongga! Alis kung alis nang walang explanation.

Di ko alam kung may sense pa sinasabi ko. haha

Will try to feel better na lang. Hopefully’ I’ll get to borrow a phone tomorrow. :D

Ingatan ang mga bagay bagay. Baka makuha ng iba yan :D *wink wink

Some lovely pairs and their lovestories

Sat, 31 Mar 2012 00:34:27 +0800

Party Shoes

Sequined Gladiator Heels (Figlia P799-P899)

I bought this impulsively. I was just supposed to be a chaperone of Mieke and Danice during that day because they were going to buy heels when I stumbled upon this pair. I said ta-try ko lang. But when I tried it on, boom. We all knew (including the saleslady) na dapat syang iuwi. haha. Add he fact na nakasale sya! It fitted so well especially with the flare body hugging pants I was wearing that day. Sexy, foxy look. Love. Already used this a number of times during gimiks.

Peeptoe Black Pumps (Rusty Lopez P1300)

Yes. The classic pumps. This is a must have! I bought this pair kasi I needed to throw away na my old peeptoe pumps (which have been used by all of my friends!). Sumusuko na kasi sya dahil sa daming beses nagamit ko at ng lahat ng friends ko. Hindi ko na mabilang. As in gamit na gamit talaga sya. So I decided to let it rest na then I’ll buy another pair. Although this is a lot higher and the heels are stiletto type na unlike my first one. But I must say, compared to other heel types, comfy to wear ang peeptoe pumps. Never been used pa. hehe

Peeptoe Black Pumps 2 (Parisian P1300)

Another impulse buying result. I was with Danice when I bought this pair. I was supposed to buy closed flats lang that day kasi bongga on sale sa Megamall. I just saw this sa mga featured shoes nila, I thought mga 2k ang price nya (kasi mukha syang mahal) kaya tinry ko lang. Super bongga! Hot hot shoes! Lalo pa akong nainlove sa kanya when I look at the price. I literally screamed when I tried this on tapos nanakbo ako papunta kay Danice. Girls, when a pair has affected you that way, it only means one thing. DO NOT LET GO or you’ll regret it forever. Oh btw, last pair ever na yung stock nila. Kaya di ko na pinakawalan! haha. Used this once pa lang.

Black and Denim Heels (Figlia P399)

The first thing I noticed about this pair ay super sale sya. Hindi gaano kabongga ang itsura nya on the shelf but since bihira lang magkaron ng Figlia heels na P399 eh tinry ko na. I was surprised when I put it on. Ganda nya. Fit na fit sa feet shape ko. And I think this can be worn with any type of outfit, especially yung medyo rugged since hindi gaano kasophisticated ang look nya (unlike the ones I’m used to buy). This is a nice pair. I’ve used this a number of times already. Fit sya kahit ao outfit. :)

Girlfriend Shoes

The Pinay Summer Wedge (Mendrez - more or less 1k, cant exactly remember)

This pair has some sentimental value. Because I bought these as my 18th birthday gift to myself and I wore them during my 18th birthday Luau party. This is very simple lang but bet ko yung exact fit nya sa paa ko. Sometimes it’s not the design of the shoes naman, it’s the way they fit your feet. That motto was true for this pair, for me. This is very sturdy kasi until now, buhay pa din sya. Very comfy also. I sometimes wear this to class.

Flower punched brown heels (Parisian P499)

This is also came from a super sale event. I saw this pair when it was recently put into the shelf. Bet ko na sya nun kaso mahal sya so I didn’t buy them. So when I came across them na super sale na sya, binili ko na. This is not really for parteying, more on for porma on a casual day or for a date. Oh and btw, I have never worn these. Si Danice (Megamall/Astoria), si Butch (Eastwood), at si Esther (Tomas Morato/Sitti concert) pa ang naunang nagsuot nito. Funny. Someday, maybe if I’ll go on a date, I can wear this. Chos.

Simple Flesh Mini Heels (Parisian - Mother bought:) )

Si madur ang bumili nito. She was the one shopping for that time and I was just roaming around the shelves putting on every pair that interested me. I was wearing a dress that time kaya when I put these on, ganda tignan - very neat and very girlfriend look. So gow na, pinabili ko na. hehe.

Neon pink flats (Less than P500)

Wala naman ata talagang brand to kasi I just bought them because I had nothing to wear for Kris’ debut. Medyo emergency levels na. haha. I opted for a casual look kasi and I had nothing to wear on my feet that matched my Christmas green dress. Di ko bet magheels nung time na yon eh. Maiba naman. All I could remember was I was with Nathan when I bought this. Though cute naman. Medyo mahirap lang hanapan ng outfit.

Utility Shoes

Vetmed proper shoes (Chelsea - P500)

This is also an emergency pair. haha. I had to rush to SM kasi wala akong isusuot with my uniform kasi biglang nasira yung black shoes ko. I am not sure if I had an exam that week ba or we were just required to wear complete uniform that week. I also bought this on sale. They’re pretty naman. I look and feel smart when I’m wearing them. Catchy din yung silver lining nya and the big buckle on the front.

Laboratory shoes (Duralite - less than P200)

This pair is so bongga! Matagal nato but according nga sa brand nya, very Durable! Kabog ang crocs dito. haha. I didn’t buy them really for lab use, natuwa lang ako kasi very cheap sya. When I entered proper and we were required to have lab shoes, I only have these pair for that. And infairness, very comfy sya around the lab and matibay :) I recommend this to everyone. hehe. Gamit na gamit ko to sa acad life ko. hehe

Unbranded rubber shoes (less than P500)

I never really had rubber shoes in my college life except when I had lawn tennis as a PE. And I think I lost them. And di rin naman ako yung type na nagra-rubber shoes. I don’t feel the need to have rubber shoes. haha. I just had to buy a pair when Pia and I decided to go gym-ing last summer. Trial lang naman yun so I just bought a cheap pair of rubber shoes. (and nahiya din ako magpabili kasi ayoko malaman ng parents ko na maggigiym ako. haha). Bet ko yung porma nya, kinda sleek and very lady-like. Although di sya ganun ka comfy, matigas yung dulo nya. My fingers tend to hurt when I’m wearing them for a long time already. I only wear them pag feel ko tomboy ako for the day. haha

Surgery room shoes (Chinese brand - P200)

Eto super bongga. I was just around Trinoma waiting for Raiza when I saw this pair. I first noticed yung cushion inside the shoe. Kasi nasa shelf sya ng mga nakasale na shoes and I thought mahal sya because of the cushion thingy. But no. The price surprised me I even said ‘Talaga?’ by myself. When I put it on, I decided I’ll get it na. Kasi super duper comfy and I realized din na we had a spay and neuter campaign the following day so magagamit ko din naman. Yes, until now, I would say, super sulit sya :)

Shoes I Forget I Have

Strapped Platforms Sandals (Mendrez P1200)

I rarely wear this pair. Pero memorable to for me. Kasi the last time I wore them was during the HP7 Part2 premiere. And I was infront of the cinema talking to the coordinator (a college event) when the strap broke! As in I had to remove them infront of the cinema kasi di ako makakalakad talaga nang suot ko sila. Define guts and charms talaga. I was very glad Mieke was there to boost my confidence. I walked barefeet from the cinema carpets to the parking lot cement that night. Memorable.

But tumagal to ha. I had them since high school. And now they’re as good as new na. My mom had them fixed :)

White plastic sandals (Parisian - Mother bought)

This pair is very ladylike. Feeling ko when I wear them, ang lady lady ko. Dalagang dalaga. haha. However, I don’t usually wear them kasi they have sharp edges that had to put scotch tape on the ends so my feet won’t blister and hurt. Keri lang sya if I don’t need to walk for long sa lakad ko. Kaya I prefer wearing flip flops talaga. Hassle free.

Black wedge espadrilles (Mother bought also)

I usually wear these with pants kasi it gives a sexy look. Di rin ako ganun kacomfy sa kanya kasi I tend to get blisters din kahit I’m wearing foot socks already. Cute din sya for lakad na hindi masyado maglalakad. hehe.

I had a pair of brown boots din pala. Pero nakay Mieke pa. She wore it at Eastwood a few months ago. I’ll try to post a pic of that din. Fierce naman ang dating nun eh. I just wore it once pa lang din.

Anyway,above these all, I still super duper prefer flip flops. Always and always I bring flip flops wherever I go. They’re the ultimate footwear for me. The pairs above are just for porma, for me. Pero kung comfort and utility, flipflops own my heart :)

PS. I took pics pala of my shoes kasi I organized them today (to keep o to give). I’ll be putting the pics on the boxes for easy identification. I gave away 7 pairs of shoes which are already overused and not really used.

Yeah, I love shoes. But don’t get me wrong, I know how to save money. And I usually buy pairs on sale. I do shoe shopping to destress. Sabi nga nila, kanya kanyang kaligayahan, kanya kanyang trip :)

Saturday night

Sun, 04 Mar 2012 00:14:01 +0800

Just because I decided to start with viro tomorrow, I’m here lying down on the sofa while watching jennifer’s body on star movies. Hmm. Actually I’ve got nothing in mind to say. I just felt like writing down anything that comes to mind. So let’s go!

Hell weeks are coming. I don’t know if will I ever be prepared. I just told myself I’ll plan my study sched then I’ll take it one day at a time. I promise to avoid stress if I can. I won’t give up. I can’t and will not. I promise to do my best and leave everything to prayers. If being a junior clinician is for me, it will be. Gosh, I hope I’ll pass all my subjects.

I’m feeling quite emotional lately. I realized when I’m it alone, I’m okay. Actually, I feel great. But when I’m just by myself, my emotions are quite taking their toll. Weird actuallye . So I’m starting to think that maybe something is bothering me. Alrhough I’m still at aline where I’m still a it confused on whether to do something about it or to just let is pass by.

I looove my pets. Really. They’re like my angels. Especially when I came from school stressed or problematic, seeing them wagging their tails and jumping up and down really makes my day. Maybe that’s why I’m making a point to hug and kiss them before I go to sleep at night.

Hmmm. I can’t think of anymore things to say.

Oh, yes. It’s my bestfriend’s birthday on Wednesday and I still don’t have anything to give to her. Even my time cause I’ve got loads and loads to do.

I’m feeling a bit tired already. So maybe I have to end this and start creeping to my bed.

I had fun typing on an iPad. I find it cool. Haha

Anyway, goodnight! Dunno even if someone’s reading this. But whoever you are, thank you. Thank you for sticking to this lame post. Hehe

"Never maximize the privilege to become stupid and crazy. Consequences can kill you."

Mon, 20 Feb 2012 11:14:44 +0800

““Never maximize the privilege to become stupid and crazy. Consequences can kill you.””

Of Love

Sun, 19 Feb 2012 18:06:01 +0800

Since this week is the V day week, I think it’s the right time to share my thoughts on love.

Love love love. All I know is that I’m not an expert on that. Haha. Never was, never is and never will be. Many great minds have tried to explain what love is. But I guess it will and always be subjective.

As for me, I’ve never been truly in love. I may have bits of kilig and heartbroken moments, but I think I’ve never been in that gooey lovey dovey situation. I’d love to, but right now, it’s just not for me. I think I still got lots of issues when it comes to taking a chance with someone.

Primarily, my acads are so demanding! Like suuperr. My course doesn’t allow me to ‘feel’. Because feeling entails attention and consumes time. Feeling happy, stressed, sad, etc. needs time. And I can’t get myself that affected because I know my acad responsibilities will be affected. I still need to learn to deal with emotions because I can be quite impulsive.

I can feel. Every now and then, yes. There are guys who would come along, make me smile and make me feel like I’m the prettiest and most special girl in the whole wide world. But they would not stay. Or sometimes, they are not even allowed to stay.

And sometimes, it just ain’t for us. As much as we want to be with each other, the time is not for us. Hindi lang talaga pwede. Quite sad. I remember someone told me this,

“Perhaps no matter how badly we want someone in our lives or how hard we try to fix the broken, some things aren’t meant to be.”

And that pretty sums it all much.

A few things to share perhaps?

I’ve been in a stalker situation. You know, following the guy everywhere and using all your resources just to get information about your crush. I’ve been also a secret admirer! Yes, I’ve done that twice, I think - sending anonymous texts and gifts to the guy who I think never even looked twice at me at school. Funny things youth does to you. hehe.

I’ve been also the hurt friend because the guy I like likes my pretty bff. And I just couldn’t do something about it except to wish that I am prettier, and that I am the you know, the maputi, long haired, makinis-muse at school girl.

What more? I’ve also fallen into that maangas bad boy who thinks that I’m too Ms. Nice and boring for him. I’ve been also that super nice bestfriend Kim Chiu’s character in ‘Paano na kaya?’ movie. You know, the one he looks for because he is hurt, he needs someone to understand him because his girl wouldn’t. And I just had no choice to content myself on that.

Ano pa ba?

I’ve also been involved with a geek weirdo guy who I just took a chance with because I just wanted to experience what it feels like to have someone. And because I think no one better would ever take a chance with me.

Also came a time when I’ve truly fallen for someone very nice and very caring. A simple guy next door who was my classmate, groupmate turned ultimate crush. Turned MU. Turned whatever I don’t even know what to call. But we didn’t end up together. And until now, I still speculate the details why. But until now, we’re good friends. Just friends.

I’ve also had someone who was really a crush/friend who I think is good for me, but he thinks otherwise. So ofcourse, nothing happened. And again, we are good friends. Such a cliche in my life. haha.

Yes, disappointment is part of my lovelife. Sometimes it’s already tiring na. But gow, keri lang. Go on with the fight for the search for Mr. Right. Not Mr. Perfect.

What more pa ba?

The kilig experiences? Madami din. But what I think is common with my lovelife is the untimely timing of things. I’m not fortunate when it comes to timing in terms of my lovelife.

Most of the time, hindi pwede. I always get that. ‘Kung pwede lang sana..Kung sana noon..Kung sana ganito, ganyan.’ Sometimes mauuna si kuya, then ako late reaction. Sometimes naman, it’s the other way around. When andyan na, ako naman ang may issue.

I’ve been also in a situation where I am not allowed to fall for the guy. Bawal. Sabi sa libro ng pag-ibig, no deal. And as much as I wanted to be with this person, hindi pwede. It’s either I get hurt or someone else will. Nakakainis lang. However, he is also still a friend right now.

Galing no? Always friends ang ending ng aking kwento. Oh well, that’s pretty much me. I was able to keep these special guys but not that way I want to - friends.

So when people ask me why I’m single (which I frequently get)? I only have these answers in mind.

I’m single because I’m afraid to be eaten by emotions that I might lost my responsible self, no one ever really stood up and asked a chance with me and that I have an unexplainable bad luck with timing. :)

Soon, let’s just hope things might turn into a different turn. But for now, I’m just going to study, learn and explore things about adulthood and the freedom it brings, go on traveling, meeting new people, party, watch concerts and movies, and a whole lot of other things which make me happy and grow as a person :)

And this, I think deserves to be my comeback blogpost after being inactive for 3 years. Gotta start with some love!

"Just because things are hard, it doesn’t mean you have to give up."

Sun, 19 Feb 2012 16:39:32 +0800

“Just because things are hard, it doesn’t mean you have to give up.””

WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?

Wed, 27 Oct 2010 17:34:52 +0800

Paris :)